My mother always tells me, "You have to be who you want to attract." Meaning who you become involved with is often a direct reflection of you.
Given that, it definitely makes sense that I've had a string of total bags o' crap.
So obviously, for a lot of reasons, I need to make some major changes.
And I definitely need to work on my friggin self esteem. Thus, I have picked up some post-it notes. Whenever I think something positive about myself, or my situation, I write it on one of those little, yellow, sticky notes and I stick it up on my fridge. After my fridge, the bathroom mirror, after the bathroom mirror, the walls, so on and so forth.
I plan to wallpaper my house with self esteem.
My Affirmations:
There are people who think unflattering things about it. Their opinions don't matter.
Most people who believe that I am psychotic-crazy (I'm just regular type crazy), whorish, vindictive, etc. Don't know me, they know my ex. And he lies, a lot. Anyone who believes him is stupid. And generally the people who think these things, are pretty trashy.
Everyone I have in my corner loves me.
I have the best friends and family in the world. Enough said.
I actually do get hit on, a lot.
Even if BatShit husband tells me I'm disgusting, my kids tell me I'm beautiful every day.
And they are the only ones who matter.
I deserve to take a shower, at all costs.
And the people around me deserve to have me take a shower.
This state I'm in, cannot and will not last forever.
That cute guy in the garage out back keeps trying to talk to me. He sees I have kids, and finds me attractive enough to pursue me anyway.
If I could just get over myself and my marriage enough to do more than just silently walk away....
And on my bathroom mirror:
Your loss, Bat Shit husband. Your loss.
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